＊⠀ Bread
⠀ Are you even there, Radiant Sun?
⠀ I can't do this anymore, I can't do this anymore. What's the point in everything, What's the point of everything. What's the point in believing everything and everyone will get better when we don't even make progress to be better. Whatever is the point for us to live, why am I constantly walking through shards of glass, why am I bashing my head against the wall everytime I mess something wrong. Why is everything and everyone just unbearable pain, do I have to be in pain every single day of my life. Why is it me. Why is it not anybody else.
It's not fair anymore, Nothing is fair anymore. Why are you saying you're the one at fault when I've constantly said you're not the one at fault and I am. Why. Am I the one making this hard for you Am I meant to be unloved. What's the point. I'm sitting here writing this with bottled up emotions and I can't handle this anymore.
I want to go home. I want to end it all. I don't want to be tracked back. I don't want to be remembered anymore. god bless for Borderline Personality Disorder, I bet I can handle these situations just fine without it! I hope god dies for his sins. I hope the universe eats upon itself for the sins of the people. I hope we are never forgiven. I hope we will all rot in hell.
What am I even talking about. I hate this place even if it's the only place I'll ever live in. I hate this family even if it's the only one I'll ever have. I hate my internet spaces even if it's the only ones I'll ever have. What's the point. I should be skinned and stapled onto a wall, Maybe then someone will give Me the skin I always wished for — the body I always wanted. Only to ruin and discard Me again.
I feel rotten, I don't want to be around people anymore, I don't want to feel anything anymore, I want to isolate myself and disappear forever. I want maggots to eat upon Me. I want this to end. I want my body to be discarded.
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