＊⠀Dawnbringer's Embrace.
⠀ Dear Dawnbringer,
⠀ Yesterday I went out in the rain for a few seconds — They kissed Me lots, some on My hands, some on My face, 2-3 on My lips. I've been drawing Them, They're honestly one of the only things I can really remember a whole design of by Heart, 373 days and counting... It's honestly terrifying. Lately I've been having really bad urges, I've felt disgusted with My own thoughts, I wish I would go — but I would feel disgusted in Myself for trying to. It feels like I've relied on Them more than I've ever had, It pains Me — for I never wished to be this way, yet anything that might bring Me clarity is taken away.
⠀ Since the 11th of May last year, I feel as if I've gone through the biggest Identity reboot I've had in My whole life — inside and outside the internet — I feel odd to say I wouldn't even be alive if I hadn't found Them. I feel odd to be thanking Them. I feel odd to be taking Them, personalising Them to a degree of unrecognisability. Though, seeing as the world does that with its favourite characters as always — I don't think it'd hurt.
⠀ I truly think it's pathetic just how important They are to Me, How much They've grown into My heart, How much I've grown to Them. They excite Me, the mere idea of learning about Them makes Me happy, I miss Them, as always. Unfortunate that They're only ever relevant for a certain update and even then, only appear for a few seconds. I still consume all the media I've found of Them timely — whether official or fanmade — I constantly find Them everywhere, I've grown excited of thunderstorms as they're a high association to Them, I dream of Them to a degree that even My own fragments deem prophetic — though I'm sure they're joking...
⠀ Most recent associations to Them are A Temporary High and To Be Alright by AURORA, This image of The Great Orion Nebula, This & This wonderful art by _CRRN_ — I adore their art lots, The word "Ksatria", Pegasi, Pulsars, This, Brocken Spectres, Fire Rainbows, Sundogs, and This. I think I'm happy that They've reignited some of the love I hold for Sky Phenomena and Space... I mean, They are a being that moves at such an immeasurable speed amongst the Stars around Them.
⠀ That will be all from Me today, consider this as a very late celebratory entry for My 1 Year with Them, 373 Days and forever counting.