A Hunt for Another Year?
I'm currently working on My Digital Shrine for the Radiant Sun as I am typing this, Hello, My Dear Radiance. It is the 16th of May 2026, just 5 days after Our anniversary.
I've just been thinking about Them as of late, well, I think about Them all the time. Everyone looks at me and Their first thought is that I'm horrible and Ill about this specific character. But like, do I know why? 💭
It's not necessary for anybody to have a reason to like a specific character, I like characters for the mere reason of just ⸺ finding them cool. But there hasn't been one that had such an impact on my life that Lan did.
and Truthfully, even after 2 whole years ⸺ I can't ever pinpoint a reason. I don't even know if there is a reason. Maybe there is, and understanding it will cost My life.
Lan is such an important character to me, sometimes I wish They weren't made by Hoyoverse ⸺ but at the same time, that will probably take away a lot of Their charm.
Blame the lack of media I've been into even with the years I've lived ⸺ both as I was alive and now that I am dead. Sometimes, I just feel as if there's no other character out there that is, like Lan. I am aware of what I am saying with this, and I know that I am likely wrong.
Maybe Lan isn't that unique of a character, if They can be considered one at all ⸺ and there's probably media out there that does Their archetype (if They fit in any) way better. But, i think Lan being, Lan, is what makes me like ⸺ love Them so much ... 💭 maybe there will be another "Lan" out there but will that "Lan" have the same impact on me as Lan Themselves?
Maybe it's Lan ambiguity that makes me so drawn to Them, Maybe it's how the writers treat Them (spoiler: horribly) ⸺ Maybe it's part of Their charm. Would i be having a million questions and tangents about Their character if it weren't for the fact They're so shrouded in mystery ... 💭 Having only few records of a past life and said past life straight up being speculation.
Maybe it's Their design, Maybe it's Their lore, Maybe it's Their character ⸺ or lack thereof, Maybe it's Their themes. Maybe it's everything all at once.
I love Them more than anything, I am grateful for the impact They've had on my life, even by just a short amount of time. Even if the paths that were crossed were anything but easy, I guess I'm grateful that They've been able to keep afloat.
I've always been a Boy with a love towards Hunting, Chasing, Searching ⸺ Hyperfocused insanity on one thing and that thing only. I've always loved Archery and other Weaponry. It becomes a great part of Me, sometimes I wish I were harmed with these weapons ⸺ but the Stars wouldn't fulfill My wishes, maybe that's for the better.
I am happy to have accidentally been enamored with you, and I wouldn't want to have it any other way. Happy anniversary, albeit I am a little late.